Stupid knowledge!

Ignorance is bliss. That's what they say. I can tell you for a fact - that is usually true. I was once really smart. I mean super-smart. I never, ever stopped thinking, even when asleep. I was always stressed, and always making everyone crazy with all of my thinking, and talking, and questions, etc. Then I got a few traumatic brain injuries, went through an accelerated program of relationship-training, and tried real hard to be rough on myself in general for a few years. Now, I'm slightly less smart, a whole lot less sharp, and my memory is pretty much ruined. Am I happier? I certainly am.

  Well, I was. Everything was going just fine, until I decided to write a blog. At first, I thought to myself: "How hard could it be? It's simple, right?". Then, I decided to do what I always do - I would learn everything there is to know about writing a blog. Standard Operating Procedure (SOP) for me. Yeah, right. As it turns out, there is a LOT to know about writing a blog! Arrrrrgh! I currently have about 30 tabs open in my Firefox pertaining to blog-writing (plus another 40 or 50 for other things, mostly wikipedia). It seems that I am doing it all wrong. I can't continue writing my blog this way! I have to go back to the very beginning and start all over! Crikey!

  So, here I am. What, now? I guess I have to design and build a whole new blog, while continuing to write in this one. Also, I have to do all of the other things that I have to do, such as: get my car inspected, dress myself, make stupid food, shave, answer my phone, and all the other tedious, seemingly unimportant nagging chores I have to live with. I also have to be awesome for Beth, try to pretend I like people when I go to the store, Be funny on facebook, and convince my kids that I'm not the worst daddy ever. It's a lot of hard work, doing all of these things that require thinking. Oh - I'm also continuously learning languages, science stuff, stock-trading, medicine, dentistry, *astrology, metallurgy, geology, and 20 other useless, random things. On top of all that stuff, I'm trying to plan our world tour.

  What ever happened to my big plan to simplify my life? I guess I'm gonna need another traumatic brain injury. This cognitive-function recovery is getting out of hand!

 *Exploring scientific validity

Dental disappointment.

Richest country on Earth - with the crappiest health care. That seems suspicious to me.

I have to go to the VCU (Virginia Commonwealth University) dental clinic tonight. Yeah - tonight. Actually, at 2:00 A.M. They only take the first 10 people in line when they open at 7:00 - AND I have to have $75 in hand for the cost of x-rays only. How am I going to stand in line for 5 hours without going to the loo? Also - why should anyone have to? It just doesn't make sense. Greatest country in the world, my ass! America is like a bully who talks a lot of crap, but really has nothing behind the facade of awesomeness except self-proclaimed greatness. I have been to the E.R in 5 or 6 hospitals in 4 states, at huge expense, just to deal with dental emergencies resulting from lack of dental care for 12 years. I am simply too poor to go to a dentist in the U.S. I think I will end up going to Mexico to get my teeth fixed. Maybe I will stay, too. That's just pitiful.

Grrrrrrr!!!!!

 I had a new post almost written, and my clumsy fingers touched some button, I have no idea which one, and it all went away. I hate that. A lot. I'm not going to smash anything, as I wanted to, but I'm also not going to write the whole thing over again. I don't know if this has ever happened to you, but it is maddening. I'm going to sleep on it and write a new one tomorrow. I'm so mad, I'm literally angry with rage! I guess I should have been writing it in Notepad, as I am now, or in some other kind of office utility, which I know nothing about.

  I guess I need to learn some office skills.  Next stop: OpenOffice.org.

Oh, and, by the way- I just noticed that I opened Notepad, and still went ahead and wrote it directly in the Blog editor. Unbelievable.